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Feb 6Liked by Claire Wang

hi Claire :) will you believe if I say my heart was beating faster when reading your writing?

Saying goodbye is hard. And the realization of goodbye is painful. You're almost leaving a part of something precious in the past. A piece of your heart that you'll never be able to re-claim. Like you said, a realization of never again be able to create another memory with them truly hurts.

Moving forward, the idea of ephemeral friendships or experiences is so real. An "alternative dimension", as you said. Be someone you never was before. (and maybe never will?). But you know what? It's so exciting to bring the freedom of the Ephemeral You into the life of the Reality You. Truly life changing.

Your writing brought many memories and emotions I thought are already far away. I guess - thank you for that? <3

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Feb 6Liked by Claire Wang

oh my god every time i leave a city or group of people, i end up crying on the plane. like the feeling of goodbyes is such a unique sadness

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Wait yes exactly this — flights are always weirdly emotional cus it’s like an escape or an ending of a chapter

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> But you don’t have to be a statistic because, in the most annoying way possible, you are different. Different because you care, difference because you’re aware of this statistic and will fight tooth and nail for it to be untrue

< 3

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hard thing to remember but hella fun when u have autobiographical examples to think back on

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Feb 7Liked by Claire Wang

i fell in love again / all things go, all things go

goodbyes are a perennial subject in my writing, but i find that i've written about it much more in high school than i did in undergrad:

* https://mitadmissions.org/blogs/entry/i-dont-want-to-be-alone/

* https://mitadmissions.org/blogs/entry/your-first-last-day/

* https://mitadmissions.org/blogs/entry/memorial-for-a-dorm/

i think as i've gotten Older goodbyes have become… less real, i suppose

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"it reminds me of how, sometimes, it doesn’t feel like i made any friends in mit. it’s a blatant lie, by any reasonable definition of “friend”. but some days i jump from one community to another without ever feeling like i fit in. [...] how could i feel so welcomed here, and yet so alienated?"

wow—in many ways i feel this and the deep obvious untrueness of this all of the time; the feeling if being just a little bit detached from a group and then feeling stupid for feeling that angst

and, also the first last day post hit *hard* even if I had mostly experienced this leaving high school and not college; thanks for linking these <3

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Feb 12Liked by Claire Wang

anything to promote my own work :dab: glad you liked it

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Ooo will read those links, but before I do—CHICAGO! oh my god, that entire album is such a journey to listen to

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Feb 6Liked by Claire Wang

claire your writing is almost as beautiful as you are inside and out i love reading your writing <3

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Feb 6Liked by Claire Wang

claire I love this post so much. you're making me feel all these emotions again

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